The last couple weeks have been pretty jammed packed for me and my family. Between holidays, birthdays, parties, hockey and the everyday grind of work and school, our schedule has been quite jam packed. Today was full of nonsense chores and some tideous paperwork that needed to get done. I didn't feel like making dinner so asked Justin to please stop by Applebees "Car Side To Go" for a quick fix. After dinner the girls and I went and got our eyebrows waxed, it was a fun little outting after I got over the anxiety of the car ride there.....Lindsey drove! ahhh! I am so not ready for a teenager driving me around. YIKES! When we arrived home everyone was very calm......it was a great feeling. The girls were helping each other plan tomorrows outfits and hairdos, the boys were playing ( and actually REALLY getting along ) with Kaedins Star Wars figures and Justin was sleeping so peacefully on the couch, poor guy had an 11:30pm hockey game last night and work early this morning. He is commited to his hobbies and I think thats fantastic! So with everyone content, I decided to take some time to "play" on the computer for a little while. Over the last 2 months I have become really addicted to reading other peoples "stories". We all have one. New chapters beginning everyday. New highs, new lows, blessings and hardships, it happens every second of everyday. This evening As I "Browsed The Blogs" I came across a story about Audrey Caroline. I started into the blog and knew that I needed to get the bedtime rituals finished before I could continue reading her story. So as Justin continued to snore loudly on the couch :-) I got the kids settled and made a cup of tea to read this intruiging story about Audrey Caroline.
The blog starts with a couple who is blessed with 3 little girls, 5 year old twins Abbie and Ellie and a rambunctious little 2 year old, Kate. Angie ( the mother ) is pregnant with their 4th child another girl, Audrey Caroline. Tom ( the father ) is a singer in a well known gospel band and this family's faith in God is truly amazing and contagious to say the least. At Angies 20 week ultrasound they find out that there are some major complications with the precious angel that she is carrying. Audrey has an enlarged heart, her abdomen is not growing there is a tumor in her lungs, and very minimal amniotic fluid within the womb. The family needs to make a decision on whether or not they will terminate the pregnancy or leave it in Gods hands to decide if he will take her as his angel in heaven or heal her to be healthy on earth. The story goes on through the 34th week of pregnancy when Audrey is born. She was taken via C-section and lived for a strong 2 1/2 hours, where she passed peacfully in her 3 sisters arms. The blog continues to go on through the healing phases for the family, when just 7 weeks after Audreys passing, Tom's sister loses her 7 week old son Luke to SIDS. Again reading about the strength that this family has and the fact that it is led so much by their faith in God was almost overwhelming.
As I was reading this blog, I was sobbing! Crying to the point where I couldnt catch my breath. I have never even met this family, but I felt this insane emotion of hope and prayer for them. Angie had such an indescribable sense of peace about her and although she was hurting and in pain over the loss of her child, she still managed to comfort me through her words. Their story is beautiful.
Everyday I thank the lord for all of the amazing connections and angels he has blessed me with. There are times throughout my day when I have to stop and do the "Mommy 10 second countdown" to myself....in 10.9.8.7.6.5 out 4.3.2.1.0 but there is not a day that goes by that I take my littelest or any of my precious angels for granted. Justin and I have been blessed with 3 amazing children together and blessed yet again when Lindsey my step daughter, a fragile 15 year old who has endured way more then many her own age moved in with us this pass February. (Our journey with Lindsey will be coming soon to the blog.) My children are amazing, wait they are more then that! Ther is no word to describe my kids. They make me laugh, they make me cry. Their kisses are the sweetest thing any person in this world could ask for and when I hear them say "Mom" ,"Mommy", "Mama" or even "MOOOOOMMMMMM" it brings a smile to my face and sheer happiness in my heart that they are mine. They are healthy, happy and extremely polite well mannered children who depend on ME. They need my guidance, my honesty, my hugs and kisses, my patience, my trust and most importantly my love. All four of my children know that I am not perfect, nor have I ever claimed to be perfect to them. They know that I have made mistakes in my life and have learned very valuable lessons from the choices that I made. They also know that I will continue to make mistakes and will grow and learn with them as we continue our paths together through life. I truly know how blessed I am and will never take this beautiful, precious life of mine for granted.
God Bless & Warm Regards,
~Jessica
